It's been a long time since I've written a story to share and remember the memory. Last night, though, I had a small conversation with Natalie that I don't want to forget.
Sydney was at soccer practice; and Daddio was going to bring her home. Natty and I were in the kitchen eating dinner and also watching American Ninja Warrior. A commercial came on, and I zoned out as I tend to do for commercials - often missing their messages. Natty said, "I love this commercial. Too bad it's about cars though."
I started to watch the commercial to try and understand what she liked. I said, "do you like the scenery or the music? What do you like about it?"
She said, "no, it's about these two brothers racing, and the one lets the other one win."
"Ah," I said. Then I paused for a bit. Meanwhile Natty was just chewing away, working on her chicken wings.
Then I said, "so if you and Sydney were in a race, do you think Sydney would let you win?" She mildly chuckled, more of a puffed out breath and said, "no, Sydney would not let me win." I agreed in my mind. Sydney has a lot of heart - but she's wanted to be first since the day she was born...first.
I waited a moment and then said, "if you two were racing, would you let Sydney win?" Not even a pause passed and she said, "yes."
"Why," I said, "why would you let her win?"
She said, "because she's Sydney." Then she left it at that. I didn't know what "because she's Sydney meant."
I said, "Natty, what's that mean, 'she's Sydney'"
Natty said, "she's Sydney...she's awesome."
My eyes instantly pricked with tears. I have a lot of love in my heart. But I often get accused of leaving it there and not showing it. I have a lot to learn. And my eight year old showed me a lesson on pure genuine love and admiration last night.
I am so grateful for that two minute, car commercial, chicken wing, finger lickin moment on being "awesome".