Well, I am sitting here in a quiet house. The girls are napping. It's been a wonderful past week with Christmas and big smiles from the girls, gatherings of friends, great food, a visit from my parents (although a delayed visit, thanks bad weather).
It didn't just dawn on me, but it did sneak up on me that today is New Years Eve - the last day of 2010, and I have yet to sit down and plan some goals for 2011.
2010 was a really great, accomplishing year for me. Last January 1, I ran my first of 12 races for the year. My goal back then was pretty simple - and evolved into a pretty spectacular achievement for me. Since my half-marathon in November, I've been content with just simply working out and not having the stress of specific running workouts. This lingering 2011 is putting some pressure on me and making me feel like I need to do something as outrageous as this year - if not better. But what??
The "what" is what has been leaving me without words for awhile now. Do I do something else athletic? Do I audition for the play I always wanted to be in? Do I work on the book I always wanted to finish - though barely know how to start? Do I take on a new language with enthusiasm? Do I take on a new craft seriously, not just for fun - photography, maybe? Become more diligent about my writing my blog and revamping it? Develop a business plan for my dream business - and then discover what my dream business would be? I just don't know...
2010 was weird because it was so unexpected. I didn't plan to achieve what I did, it just happened. I didn't even just run last year; it was so much more. I sewed some dresses for my daughters, planned and hosted some great parties, did some awesome travels, did another blog book. Not to mention just the wonderful day to day time spending it with my family and all the activities with my girls.
Knowing where to start has always been my challenge. I have a lot of things I'd like to do. I have a long list of wishes. But I get overwhelmed with them, and then I end up confused and thinking, "well, I guess there's nothing really pressing on my list, so I'll just do nothing."
I have a bucket list. I have quite a few things marked off that list. Several of my things are going to have to wait a while - time, kids and money are in my way right now. It's funny because the half-marathon on my list stared at me for so long. I would scan past it and go, 'huh, nice thought that was when I wrote it down.' Now I look at other things with the same thought. So I know achievements are possible.
Well hmmm, I thought the more I'd write today, the more clarity I would have - but I'm not having it.
Sooooo, I guess I will embrace the rest of this day and see where tomorrow leads me. Tonight will be filled very pleasantly - loved ones, good friends, good food, good drinks, good times.... a nice way to close a very fulfilling year. Thank you 2010.... I thoroughly enjoyed you!